hope you are doing well
Me? well... I'm not sure where to start.
Im not someone that likes to bring her personal life happenings into the internet, but right now many parts of my life are being affected.
I really don't want to go into detail, i won't.
But i can tell you this past July was simply horrible, horrible I tell you and i ended having an anxiety/stress crisis, it got bad, pretty bad.
If i was able to submit my latest plushie onto my gallery was simply because the photos were already taken and edited.
but boy, by the time it went up i was already pretty crushed.
I'm now in medication and getting help, thankfully my family has been really supportive, and that has helped a lot, but I'm certainly not at my 100%, gee i don't feel I'm even at my 40%! or even less.
my body is in pain, my mind can't focus, and my emotions won't help. i cant get to work, even responding to messages is a big effort, i feel so drained all the time. i hate it.
After talking with some friends, family and doctor i have come to the conclusion that i do need to take some time out, i need to do something about my current physical and mental health, i haven't really done much for myself in the past years regarding those matters and things went bad. those issues were already making me slow but now I really went up my limits.
Because of this, and really not wanting too, and after thinking about it over and over again and being advised by other artists... im really sorry to announce that i will be canceling many if not most commissions request from my current list and waiting list, they are adding extra amounts of pressure and stress to my already high levels. feeling constantly guilty that i own people, that I'm failing at completing things, that there is so much to do and that im being slowed down by my health its certainly not helping.
I'm so sorry I'm doing this, I'm really so sorry, after all the time you been waiting, i feel terrible about it. but right now i feel that i just can't handle the work nor the stress that comes when i work on commissions, i cant.
I'm way too much of a stressful person and that is something i hope i can change too.
If I'm not canceling them all is simply because this is still my main and only income, and after some events from July I'm now in debt and can't just go around not working at all.
I'm not canceling commissions that have been already paid nor those that have been already started.
I may not cancel a few if i consider they aren't too demanding but ill see.
im not happy about this, I'm sad and angry, but in the long run i kind of need it.
Ill be individually messaging all commissioners to apologize and to let them know more details on the next days/week.
then ill make public the new list.
Once im finished with it and depending on how my situation is ill let you know if ill go open for commissions again and when.
Does that mean you won't see much of me around?
I'll try my best to stay in contact, and reply to direct messages, you can contact me through etsy, facebook, here and via mail.
but i won't be very active in general. I do read all you comments and i really appreciate all of your kind words, thank you so much for taking the time to write.
That doesn't mean you won't be seeing more works from me
when i work on small and personal projects i come up with (like my felt fox and other little silly things) it becomes quite therapeutical, so some more of that kind of work may come around, and as i mention before i still need to keep working to pay the bills, so some of those works may also be placed for sale.
Ill try and do my best to keep you updated on how things go
Im so sorry once again for all of this.
Thanks so far for reading and being so patient
I hope you are doing well and having a good time